No, this isn’t a quiz where the score at the end will say, ‘Congratulations, you are a know-it-all when it comes to yourself!’. It’s also something that sounds super obvious, doesn’t it? Of all the people in the world, the one person we definitely know well is ourselves, right?
A recent self-exploration session made me rethink that. To some extent.
The more we talked about me, what’s important to me, my values, my needs – certain things kept coming up, things that I hadn’t thought about for a long time. Yet they were things that I knew I’d spent most of my teenage years and early 20s fighting for.
It seemed it was as important to me now, if not more.
And yet, somewhere I’d stopped fighting for it.
When I visualised the person I’d like to be, I realised it was the person I used to be.
At what point did I manage to lose myself?
When did I tell myself to start living up to people’s expectations from me, instead of living up to my own expectations from myself?
How do we take the mask off? The one that’s now glued on so tight that you’re no longer sure where the plastic ends and the skin starts?
How do we turn back time, and become ourselves, again?
P.S. If there’s one thing this session made me realise, it’s the importance of having some time to myself. And it’s the one thing I’d suggest to everyone around me. Take advantage of the lovely rains and maybe just sit somewhere comfortable, with your cup of tea / coffee / water, and nothing else. No blue screens. No distractions. Just you and your thoughts. And remember, who you really are.
Maybe, you’d be pleasantly surprised.